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I was a dog, but because I was really good, they moved me up to human being status.
Registered Member #382
Joined: Thu Aug 10 2006, 11:16PMPosts: 150 |
Hello, I had left my present address to find work (which I did) and was successful in landing a decent apartment. Ha. What a change ? I was working at this place doing nights at 14+ hours a day - Getting a pretty sweet check, but things were just different. I didn't like who I was becoming ? It seemed like when I was at work, I had wished that everything would die in the world, and that things are much better on the outside.. Like when I was to get off work, I could then appreciate the good things in life. But it never changed, the next day coming back into a situation and environment that evolved around constant swearing and the degrading of my generation. No I don't plan to have kids just yet, I don't do crack on a regular basis, nor do I call the girl I stay with "my old lady" . It was tough - It is tough. I went through a few months of that trying to make what friends I could lacking in getting to those that I have here on FT, Youtube, and even myspace. I frequently check my mail and would love everyone to send me some emails yeah ? It still is -[email]- Its about growing up, but who has the right to tell someone how to act on the inside, or why should it be this reoccurring phase in age / aspects of life . Its funny... My parents married really young, my dad looking for work - doing almost the same things, having 2 children by the age of 24. Wasn't this something I was trying to avoid ? Its the sense of security, but that shouldnt be found in a place you loathe so much. But if its all you can get, who is to blame ? Its the person that you lay your head next to everynight.. The meaning to get up the next morning. What if that was the problem all along ? Is he/she really helping you through life and giving you the attention deserved. I mean deserved . I don't think life is about sacrifice - Its all a matter of choice. Please think about this any possible way you can, as I may have in the past few weeks. Does this make me a mamma's boy  Haha no. Ive been with girls that have been completely independant, and I was basically there on the sidelines cheering them on. It builds character, gives confidence, and I think people still have morals nowadays yeah ? Its tough. Screw the questions of what you are going to be, or do for the rest of your life. What are you going to become ? You want to touch those that are close to you in life and continue this relationships till the day you die. Its all about building, no quick gimmicks or get-rich-quick deals to substitute for life. I got the internet. I thought things would change between us, my job, my aspect. But there once again, the greed kicks in. Is it too much to ask for something to run correctly ? Or at least at speeds you wish. With my computer becoming obsolete totally limiting me to a handful of games, and not being able to load a single video half decently to keep my imagination running and the flow of events balanced. She started playing more, got to her friends more.. eh.. Nothing good comes out of hate. It almost is better to be selfish. I think opinion is at its best, but is never looked at as such. Only accusations to further make something out of nothing - Its something, but not intended for . Your Music ? Creates memories, the act of nostalgia holding on to what makes you who you are. You can feel it, that feeds your will, awareness, its yours. Is that what your fighting for ? TO be able to hang on? Not lose it. Holy shit, I dealt with such ignorance at times working there you have to believe. Why would I put myself through the near verge of wanting to kill myself ? I was only staying there for the sake of Ainslie. No job, we move in together, I needed cash (or a job for that matter, at least to rely on now having bills) so I stuck with it. It make me stonger, I learned to adapt, and created somewhat of a routine out of it. In my company I touched almost every branch of work there was in there. I was expanding, and that also gave me a clear mind of what we were really doing. I was able to handle myself well while keeping a little fit. Staying active is a big part of being an adult  Its sad to think that everyone you ever met being your elders, knew something so sacred they couldnt tell you. You figure things out on your own, but is it as easy to say its the same for most people ? What is the big secret ? I'm at the point where Ainslie is upset with me every other night of the week, doing next to nothing, but being blamed for it all - Her reactions feelings are all in my hands it seems. Even her time / Can I not be myself around her or even think for 2 seconds ? Imagine that. . . . Really just keep a level head, and much like chess.. know your next moves no matter how far ahead you wish to think it on. Its still the same board, your given the same pieces. Plenty of combinations.. you get it. I can't even play a single song with out it being considered a head ache ? Who the fuck are you to care so much - you don't play anything yourself even after building such a persona that I believed to be very open. Like mother like daughter, father son. . . . I only want to live in this minute - the thread, it is alive. You look at someone you meet, can you assume you know what kind of person they are ? At least as far as knowing you can communicate with them easily enough, or perhaps understand anything that they are trying to get pass you , happened to them, their way of being. There is this comfortable medium expressed by everyone in some way, only matter is that it being there.I found a new job and start late october. haha... I tried being a sales rep - 'Wanna kirby anyone ? It'll last you 35-50 years ' . I like that field of work, so I'm working for Access Worldwide now ? I get paid during training, and there will be commission ontop of an hourly - Benefits, plans, 401k (Ive already started mine.. have you ?) Stocks are really a good way to go.. I just want more.. and more .. for myself. It helps.. I love it.. what did I do ? My uncle is planning to start a carpentry thing, and my aunt is considered to be the 5th richest woman in the usa. ha. What is that !? Become a maid, hope the woman dies - She does.. Her son sues, son dies during court trials.. Aunt gets all the cash , 25+ estates including an oil company she sold for 1.5 billion . heh. I was the first grandson you know =D *wink wink . : / It is my fathers sister, she may help me out - Hell even if its 50k right ? That would be rad. -Please email me ? Say anything ! Happy Birthday to everyone I missed.. SPecially if 18 was the turning age =) Aaron |
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| NoSkill |
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Sir
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Joined: Tue Oct 10 2006, 01:13PMPosts: 2628 |
I would buy it for you... but you wouldn't get as much out of it. You seem educated and well spoken as am I. This book gave me the confidence to withdraw from college, move through bullshit need based relationships and become the leading sales manager (future director, once we get a board) for a multi-million dollar company. Just buy it for $12. Let me know what you think. "The 48 Laws of Power" - Robert Greene ISBN-10: 0140280197 |
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| LiquidCreek42 |
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I was a dog, but because I was really good, they moved me up to human being status.
Registered Member #382
Joined: Thu Aug 10 2006, 11:16PM Posts: 150 |
I cut my hair . Didn't do me any good.. I need the world. -[link]- -[link]- -[link]- -[link]- -[link]- -[link]- oh my lipring. I'm not sure if I miss it. |
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| LiquidCreek42 |
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I was a dog, but because I was really good, they moved me up to human being status.
Registered Member #382
Joined: Thu Aug 10 2006, 11:16PM Posts: 150 |
Hey groovy. I'll check that out - NoSkill wrote ...
I would buy it for you... but you wouldn't get as much out of it. You seem educated and well spoken as am I. This book gave me the confidence to withdraw from college, move through bullshit need based relationships and become the leading sales manager (future director, once we get a board) for a multi-million dollar company. Just buy it for $12. Let me know what you think. "The 48 Laws of Power" - Robert Greene ISBN-10: 0140280197 |
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| aborted fetus |
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The All-Cum Diet
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Joined: Mon Dec 05 2005, 04:55PMPosts: 1888 |
I'm confused. Who wants to look at my penis? |
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| Rusty |
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FTS Server Op
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Joined: Wed Mar 01 2006, 06:33PMPosts: 2682 |
Good to hear from you on the boards Aaron. I'll shoot you an email sometime next week when I get a chance. Hope the new job works out for you though! Also, keep truckin man! Edited Thu Oct 18 2007, 05:23PM |
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Joined: Sat Dec 17 2005, 08:51PMPosts: 3128 |
I read this over Ave Maria. Beautiful. | ||
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I was a dog, but because I was really good, they moved me up to human being status.
Registered Member #382
Joined: Thu Aug 10 2006, 11:16PM Posts: 150 |
Fetus =======) Thanks Rusty, and I hope to hear from you .. KD, can I come to cali ? Just a thought. | ||
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| X`terrania |
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Joined: Sat Jul 28 2007, 11:24AMPosts: 51 |
oh mai, liquid, who is this? -[link]- | ||
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above the clouds since 1983
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Joined: Sat Nov 19 2005, 05:47AMPosts: 356 |
liquid has become a disgruntled employee. add a gun and you got a perfect combination. | ||
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